Currently im feeling so sad.
I miss my dad. I hoping he is doing good in prison. How i wish i could call him and talk to him and let him know that i miss him so much )':

He's the only dad i have in the world. No one can replace him. Eventhough at certain times i hate him, but deep in my heart, i still love him. He's my inspiration and my everything. Its true that my mum and dad could never be like before, but i only have them who can support me in my life. The picture up there was the last picture that my mum and dad took together. I still remember it was in the year 2008. I mishh those times, seriously.

I know that dad needs me the most in his life as he got no one else to turn to except for me. And even if im not there with him, but i will still be in his heart forever.

Just now, when i attend his case at the surbodinate court, i saw him. I suddenly feel so down. My heart breaks to see my dad. I could see the pain and the hard times that he is going through right now. And yet, my mum keep on saying that "he deserve it". Haish. I just cant understand what my mum really want. Im sorry dad, i wasnt there with you when you needed me the most. I feel guilty leaving you like this. All i could see from ur eyes just now are just tears and sadness. You could only smile at me and i could only smile at you back. I was hoping that i could talk to you and hugged you at the same time. Wanted to let you know how much i missed you. Haishh. When its time for you to go, i feel like crying but i have to be strong.

Papa, i promise to always visit you while you were in there. I will always pray for you. Hopefully you will change while you were in there. I will always wait for you. I miss those times that we spend together, papa. The times that you took me for a movie and take good care of me while i was sick. Thanks for everything. I will not forget all the time you had sacrifice for me. Thankyousomuch. Iloveyou and imissyou, papa. ):

Heyyyy!
Im back. Sorry for not updating my dead blog. Im sooooo busy with school and have to settle many problems. Yeah ~
Have to go through many ups & downs. Hopefully you guys out there will understand me. Hahaha (:
I miss blogging. Seriously. Hahah.
Well, now my life is back to normal. I have to continue my life eventhough i have to faced many problems.

Since mum and dad get separated, i feel something missing in my life. I always get into fight with mum. And always got kicked out of the house. Haha. Im used to it already. So i dont mind actually. But I dun feel the love i use to get from both my parents. Now, they led to their own life. Im happy if they are happy. And yeah ~ im miss my dad. Hopeully he's doing fine in there. I will always pray for the best for him. And i want my dad to know that eventhough i was not there to help him and im far from him, but my heart will always be there with him. And i will always love my parents. I know deep inside mum's heart, she still love my dad. But i guess dorang tkde jodoh. Nk apekan? Hmm.. I have to accept all this eventhough its hard to accept the fact that they both are not meant to be together. Haish. Nevermind. Life have to go onn.

Okayy readers, will update again once im free ^^
Sorry for not updating /blogging for so longg. (:

im abit disappointed.
haishhh :(
what i expected , is not there ..
you were there in school , looking & staring at me , but did you care of my feelings ?
did you bother to ask if im okay or not ? must i make the first you ?
heck care . kauu stakat berani bebual dlm facebook , itu je ? cube kalau bebual face to face ? mesti kauu matii point kann ? im really disappointed with youu . im hoping that you would really approach me and ask me if im okay rather than you staring at me like that .
my heart scattered in pieces ! you were the one for me , you are the one who understand me the most , yet you still wanna act this way ? CCB .
you know how hurtful my heart is to see you acting in this way ?
haishh . im sorry for acting that way towards you , its just beacuse i want you to realise your mistake and want you to know that i dun wanna lose a bestfriend like you . I love you so muchh seh bestfriend . HAISH . like i say , i dun mind losing friends like them , but i mind losing a bestfriend like you . we've been together going through ups and downs together . you know me well so as i do . PLEASE , im begging you . dont act this way towards me . I love our friendship . if you read this , im hoping that u will text me , cause i'll be waiting ..

and yeah , thanks for amirulAdeq , aqilahEqee, Nazirah, Syasya, Wan, Zhikang, Taufik, Azmi & Afiq for being there when i was in the breakdown mood . Yeah , u guys were there to give me hugs & calm me down when i cry the whole daay, which is from morning till night . even now my eyes are still bengkak , HAISH . its really hard . why must i go through all this ? i just dont get it .. anw , thanks to my teman , Ahrel for hearing my problems . and thanks for the advice ahrel . i appreciate it , i promise to listen to ur advice teman (:

alright now , till here .
im not in the mood to write much more ..
will update again soon , since im tired as i just come back from hockey training .
nights readers . (:

P/S: Sorry for acting this way , i dun wanna lose a bestfriend like you . i love you Siti Sulaihah .

Im seriously in a breakdown mood . :(
i've been crying since morning until now .
my eyes are like zombie already , haha .
i just cant get over it :'(
the way to send me that message as if im in the wrong .
I KNOW NOTHING !!
it's like suddenly i received that message , reading all that , my heart scattered in pieces ! what have i done wrong ? since when i've been saying like that ? since when im into jealousy ? What The Fuck !
who do you believe the most ? me or her ?
hiashh , i seriously give up ! D:
guess i rather be hurt than feel nothing at all .
and i wonder if i ever cross your mind , cause for me it happen all the time .
D: *Sobsob*

And now , i keep thinking on the problems i've been facing all this while .
i dun wanna get separated with my dearest siblings . they are everything to me .
they are always there for me when i need them . time past , time flies . im hoping that we will always stay together . i love you guys . D;

i really not in the mood right now ..
im off to sleep . nights (:

hello readers !
im back after a long and dead blog ..
hahah ! sorry , kinda busy with things ..

hmm , im writing today just because i wanna let out my feelings .
i currently miss my dad :(
how i wish i could meet him now & hug him .. tell him that i miss him so much !
after he left home , my house become sooo quiet . he left us for so long .
im hoping that he knows that his pampered daughter misses him .
i will always pray for his safety & hoping that i will meet him soon ..
okay guys . im off to sleep !

Hello ! Im bacckk (:

just come back home from geylangg . really had fun just now .
walaupon mood ku swing because of my dad ~
hadddd a great time with syabil , sue , aqilah , naz , ahlina & not forgetting the bday boi , Amirul (:
haha . after rehearsal , when ack to aqilahh house to change . meet up again at 7.15 . late .
thanks for syabil and amirul for being late . reach geylang around 8.10 . when to HAWA Restaurant to eat . enjoying down there (:
gayyrekkk . haha . after eat , when for a walk around bazaar geylang efore that send sue to her family .
around 11 , went home with aqilahh . take a cab home . siket peyh lamee nk tggu taxi . haiyohh .
heard that syabil hp lost ? memang kauu cuai tauu syabil . maybe kauu tertinggal pat tempat game kot ?
ahhaa . play some games just now . i won a spongebob cuddle pillow . cuuuuteeee siakk ! :D
haha . ahlina also got one . currently uploading photos in facebook . haha (:

to amirul asyraf ;

hope that mirul like the birthday present that i bought for you . hmm , ingat kn tak pakai , pakai jugakk ehh ! hahah . hope u enjoy ur day with us today . first time siak klua gy geylang dgn mirul . alek mlm2 lagy ! hope u enjoy , yeaahh , hoping so . So , da besar kn ? must takecare of urself well u know (;
orang tuh pon da grow taller than before . hahah !
ahahaha .

alrite people . till here , gonna sleep soon (:
gudnite . ;D

Hello (:

Sorry long time never update . busy with school . (:
saw that pic up there ? i miss them you know . HMPHFT !
SUMPAHH lala rindu korg ! i want us to be like before ..
rapaaaaat mcm duluh . Buleyh ?
its fine with me if Iqbal tkde . Bile laa mauu ton lagy ?
hahah . rinduu sakk nk lepakk dgn korg .
haha , must lepakk sooon tauu . heheh (:
alrite !

tomorrow is the second teacher's dayy audition .
OMG! im just hoping we will get through this audition and perform on teacher's day. YEAHHH! i will make a acoustic cover with NURUL AMIRAH; Mia .
hahahah ! cant wait laaa sehh ! will be covering hey soul sister by train .
as usual , its mia whose gonna sing while im playing guitar . (:
miaa , hoping that we will do better than the others . bole kn mia !?
heheh . alrite , need sum rest now . still need to prepare for tmr audition .
you goo TYD !! hahah (:
bye all . (:

hey there (:

see the picture up there ? its mum . my pillar of strength .
she is the one who gives me hope & strength to go on in life .
thanks for everything mum . (:

today school was okay . i enjoy today's day !
i enjoy the time when i was on my way to school .. get wet because of raining .
was playing in the rain with aqilah , sue & afiq . but end up afiq share the same umbrella with sue while me & aqilah walk in the rain . haha (:
fun ! sweet couple uh sue & afiq tadi .. hahaha !
weell now , getting cold . haahh ! suspect kuat , conferm demam ! hahah :D
gayrekgayrek .. ((:
after school , went to eat KFC at woodlands central .
teeeeheee (:
fun walaupon skejappp .. hahah !
enjoy every moment with sue , semot , aqilah & iqbal .
saddd that afiq was not with us due to his band rehearsal ..
nehhmind my dear , next time okay ? heheh !
after that went home ..
once reach home , i look at mum .. i thought mum would say something or even smile to me .. but no . how sad i am to see mum's reaction once she see me .. she straight away went inside her room and get changed to go work ..
looking at mum reaction , makes me cry . i quietly sit inside my room crying .
i heard mum complaining to dad about her pain in stomach ..
i feel so guilty !! haishh ... tears keep rolling down my cheeks .. :'(
what should i do now ?
haissshhhh ! im just hoping that mum is okay now at work ..

mum , ur are the most beautiful women i ever saw . all i am , i owe to you .
i tribute all the sucess in life to the moral , intellectual and physial education i received from you . no one in the world can ever take u in ur place or even replace u . now i know that , right or wrong from the view of point , u are always right .. mum is a never ending song in my heart of comfort , happiness & being. i may sumtimes forget the words but i will always remember the tune .. i love you mum (:

alright , till here . takecare ~

Hell0 My Dear Readers ! (:

Today is saturday . so , as usually , we go out .
but today i went out wif besfriend , Afiq & gerlfriend , Nazirah .
supposed to meet at bns at 3.30 . but end up meeting at 4 .
aqilahh was supposed to follow us , but due to some problems , so yeaahhh ..
First thing , went to city hall .. Eat SAKURA ! :D
it's all on me (:
after that , went to peninsula . look around ..
I saw one guitar ! Lawaaaarr laaaa siol ! i wanna buy it next month ! heeeeehhheee (:
after walk around , beli baju pat M.O.C !
laaawaa laa seh .. haha . it cost $39 . worth it laa eh . okayyy laa tuh .
after that , walk around again ... then slack ! the best part is . today preNational Day Parade was AWESOME !! I like ! especially the fireworks ! hahaha , sempat tengok ehh ! hahah (:
lol . after that we go home (:

To my Precious Nurul Aqilah ;
Kauu tkmuh sad sad kay ? i understand how you feel . No worries laa ehk ?
there's still other days that we can go out together .. kauu sabar jerh kay ?
biar ape mak kauu nk ckp, dengar kn je . nnti bile die penat conferm senyap nye .
HAAH ! youu know , sad to know that you are not following , last min lagy !
tapy tkper , i understand ur situation right now . ur mum & my mum is the same .
boleh dudok satu rumah lempar bomb ! hahah ! * siak uh lala ! *
daaaalaaa qeilahh , kauu releks jela . makk kauu nk sumpah kau , biarkn jerh .
mak mane yg tak syg anak ? mak yg tak syg anak jerh yg nk sumpah anak tk selamat sume ..
ur mum conferm take back her words . takkan die sanggup kn nk tgk anak die merane ?
andd please my dear , jgn kluar dr uma tuh . kalau nk lari , dtg uma akuh . everything here is open for you (:
haaha (:
tkmuh stress tau . gelang dgn rantai bole beli yg baru nye !
hahaha .. busok mane atau jahat mane pon makk kauu , she is still ur mum kay?
chill gerl .. anything u nid sumone to talk to , mxg akuh kay ? im here for you . takecare my BbyP (:

Untuk seseorang yg disayangi ;
Im sorry if im giving you the late answer .. i still need time to think ..
im not sure .. i dont know how to say laaa actually ..
im scared to get into a relationship becuase i dun wan to be hurt anymore . its enough of getting hurt .
i dunn wan to get hurt by someone whom i love & give him full of my heart & end up getting hurt . its really hurtful you know .. i just need some time to think.
its been almost all the time being with sumone whom i love , they hurt me so badly .
i hoping that you will understand me (:
just give me some time to think all over again .
thanks (:

all right , till here . im off to sleep (:
bye , takecare :D

Heyloooo Readers !

weeeeell , today didnt attend school . Sick , lazy & injured my leg .
yesterday was Racial Harmony Day & North-Zone Carnival .
its really an unlucky day . like sial !
Racial harmony Day , akuh tak semangat naqq py pakai baju traditional cause its was a busy day yesterday . I have so many events to attend to , so i feel like it was a waste of time wearing traditional clothes . On that day itself , we had P.E lesson . but those P.E lesson become photo taking lesson . we spent those 30 mins taking pictures (:
Sume hyper siak .. LOL ! hadd a great time with my classmates .
heeeehheee ! at around 1.30 during PS lesson , me & the others who are going for carnival are released ! we're like " YEAAAAHHH! GAYREEKKK! " hahah !
get changed .. took a transport to Riverside sec .. reach there around 2.15 .
when we reach there only , the event has already started .. BORINGGGG Siol !
my team get to play basketball & human soccer . while the other went or storytelling & other sports like frisbee & human soccer as well ... i was suppose to go for storytelling , how lucky i am , Cikgu Shidah changed me into sports (:
hahah ! gayrekk ! naseb tak kene storytelling , kalau takkk ... org2 conferm tdo . :D
i hate playing human soccer with this school , dunnoe what's the school name ! HAHAH !
in each group , there is mixed of boys & girls .. then there's this one girl . easy say , dunnoe how to play soccer , keep kicking my leg !! mcm budak bodoh pat situ , org tendang bola , die tendang kaki akuh! SELENGER BIN BODOH ! kalau sekali atau dua tkper jugak .. niey five to six times sia .. feel like punching her face ! *HAKDUSSHHH !*
nowww , my legg swollen .. she gonna be responsible for my leg! MWHAHAHAH ! see yaa in ur dream ! hahah ! FAKE siaaa LALA ! :DD
after that carnival , when slackking at fushan garden with junwei , azmi , ahlina , zaki & naz .
reachh home ard 6 plus i think . reach home only , SLEEP ! :D
hahah !

Lets talk abt today . currently chatting with Crow & BbyP (aqilah) .
just went slackking with bestfriend , afiq . GAYYREKK ! record some song that i sing with afiq .
thanks bestfriend for making me smile (:
anw , Aqilahhh , SUMPAH kauu cute ! takk tipu :P
kalauu kauu tak cute , takan laa aderh org suke & kate kauu cute kn ? betol taq ?
EHEEEMMM ! *keep it to urself aqilah*
hahahha (:
tkmoooo actionnn sehhh aqilaahh , favour uh . JANGAN JUAL MAHAL !
hahah ! anw , akuh nk say Thanks for being there with me when i need you bbyP .
thanks uhh . sayang kauu many2 ..
BTW , JANGAN HARAP KAUU BULEYHH DAPAT WAWA ATAU SHANKY !!
TAKKAN DAPAT ! SHANKY akuh nye ! hahah . wawa akuh tak tawuh sape nye ..
hahah ! DREAM ON girl . :DD
lepas niey , kauu nk flood akuh peyh blog , flood laa . i dont care (:
i will flood your too ! hahah ..
actually i wanted to upload a video recorded of me singing with afiq .. tapi lambat uh . so takecare sudaahh ! hahah .

Kay uhh my beloved readers , update again soon ! BYE ~